Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Curry Puff Emo Day
"I know I 'd made a lot of mistakes but I don't regret making any of them.
Because if I hadn't made them, I wouldn't know how to make things right." (13, 30)
I regret.
I don't like to study but I still go to college. I didn't like sciences but I chose the science stream. I don't like to speak but I had to.
If there is a meaning in life, I think I haven't found one. I do things for the sake of doing it, everything is just a burden. It's a question that kept me thinking but I do not know the solution to it.
I admire those who didn't undergo education but something else. Like street dancing, magic and so on. They were bold enough to take such a huge risk which will perhaps end them up in nowhere. Their infinite love and passion for what they really want and the hard work they put in to make things right really inspired me. On the other hand, it made me feel so small.
"You should not go into music unless it is a compulsion. In the end, all you really have as a center is music itself. Make sure that you have to be with it everyday. If that's true, then you should become a musician." - Michael Tilson Thomas.
I think it applies for everything else. If you dread it, you hate it.
Everything sucks right now.
Maybe I should put in effort to change. Maybe I shouldn't. I'm not good enough.
I really don't understand. Why do people ask things that they know the person never tell?
Everyone have their own darkest secrets.
You know better.
Because if I hadn't made them, I wouldn't know how to make things right." (13, 30)
I regret.
I don't like to study but I still go to college. I didn't like sciences but I chose the science stream. I don't like to speak but I had to.
If there is a meaning in life, I think I haven't found one. I do things for the sake of doing it, everything is just a burden. It's a question that kept me thinking but I do not know the solution to it.
I admire those who didn't undergo education but something else. Like street dancing, magic and so on. They were bold enough to take such a huge risk which will perhaps end them up in nowhere. Their infinite love and passion for what they really want and the hard work they put in to make things right really inspired me. On the other hand, it made me feel so small.
"You should not go into music unless it is a compulsion. In the end, all you really have as a center is music itself. Make sure that you have to be with it everyday. If that's true, then you should become a musician." - Michael Tilson Thomas.
I think it applies for everything else. If you dread it, you hate it.
Everything sucks right now.
Maybe I should put in effort to change. Maybe I shouldn't. I'm not good enough.
I really don't understand. Why do people ask things that they know the person never tell?
Everyone have their own darkest secrets.
You know better.