Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Stress
I'm so stress out by the social studies paper tomorrow. I spend so much time on just one of the essays. MYE starts tomorrow. I'm seriously not going to touch the com till the last paper. It's for real this time.
I can't believe that I spend half an hour typing and everything is gone. It is not my day. I'm so pissed by them, early in the morning. I hate people who think that they truely and deeply understand me. Yea. Eff them.
"Hey be resilient! Don't break down!"--> I heard that so many times that it doesn't work for me anymore. I don't even know why on earth am I studying so hard. Perhaps for a piece of paper only.
Anyway, I'm not smart at all, I just a idiotic woman sitting at a corner playing with chopsticks. Arggghh! I hope it's all over, I can just do something pleasant, something I like. I wanna find someone who will listen to me and help me solve my problems. I am a problematic teenager. I can't control my feelings and sometimes I felt like standing up in the middle of the maths lesson and screamed so loud that I can hear nobody. It's not only me who's slacking, I think the whole class is... most of them.
I read wipe out. "Surfing to remember, sleeping to forget. It's not a book with BIG words. It is something that you will stick your face onto until you finished. I'm so sorry that I lost myself today.
I can't believe that I spend half an hour typing and everything is gone. It is not my day. I'm so pissed by them, early in the morning. I hate people who think that they truely and deeply understand me. Yea. Eff them.
"Hey be resilient! Don't break down!"--> I heard that so many times that it doesn't work for me anymore. I don't even know why on earth am I studying so hard. Perhaps for a piece of paper only.
Anyway, I'm not smart at all, I just a idiotic woman sitting at a corner playing with chopsticks. Arggghh! I hope it's all over, I can just do something pleasant, something I like. I wanna find someone who will listen to me and help me solve my problems. I am a problematic teenager. I can't control my feelings and sometimes I felt like standing up in the middle of the maths lesson and screamed so loud that I can hear nobody. It's not only me who's slacking, I think the whole class is... most of them.
I read wipe out. "Surfing to remember, sleeping to forget. It's not a book with BIG words. It is something that you will stick your face onto until you finished. I'm so sorry that I lost myself today.