Itinerary

I watched the Oscar some days ago... I forgot which day it was. I must say that I totally love the sound effect choir. It's even better than beatboxing. As usual, there are touching speeches and artistic visual effects (The white screen). That's so Oscar.



Speeches from Forest Whitaker, Jennifer Hudson are so touching. For me, most touching and memorable speech made in the entire Oscar is from Ennio Morricone. He produces wonderful music and every note brings emotions to the heart. See, how emo I can be. He is really an inspirational man to me. Bravo. He deserves to have the Honorary Academy Award. I also like the moment whereby the screen flashes all the pictures actors and actresses who had passed away. "Memories of them though they are gone." It totally brought out the mood and atmosphere and you can see people crying.

I love the songs from Dreamgirls. However, I felt that Beyonce was a little too dramatic when she sang "Listen". I think she was too into the song and lost herself. Was it because of Jay Z?

All in all, I feel that it was so damn hard to win the Oscar and being in the nomination list is good enough.

Talking about wasting life, I realise how foolish people can get. Temptations ruin everything. I felt that I'm wasting my life too. Doing things that what people want me to. I'm going to break away. Really really soon. Till that day.

By the way, Matthew extended my work to 11th of March. To think I actually agreeded. (For the sake of money) I have to go down to SIS building, Vizon to do the price tags tommorow.

Good night.

I'd switched to selling shoes. Men shoes. Serene asked me to help.

I asked her why is it that men shoes are more expensive than women ones. She said men have bigger foot so require more leather in the making of it and therefore cost more. Quite logical but it sounded like a joke. Hmmm... The most expensive shoe sold there should be Masai Barefoot Technology. (MBT)

I missed Chingay, Parade of Dreams 2007! Arh! Dammit. Fadiah went though, after work. She told me that she went skiing in New Zealand. Totally awesome! Anyway, I talked more to Docker's and she said she's thirty years old. Damn... She looks like twenty four to me. She even have two kids, a girl (3) and a boy.(1) Wow!

Having a feast back home. Yum yum.

I'd just watched Neil Armstrong on moon in Apollo-11. I want to be on moon.

That was the van's plate number. The van that carried the dead man's body, in a casket. The dead man was uncle, in other words, my father's brother.

This time, it was totally different. It was a christian ceremony, whereby they talk all about Jesus Christ, heaven, flowers, grass and then amen. It's kinda of like something new to me. I used to go to chinese funerals where there are a lot of chantings, joss sticks and procedures. The christian way was really simple and fast. I remembered that I'd watched a music video, Helena by My Chemical Romance. It's about the same where their loved ones place their hands on the back of van. Tears and more tears.

So, we went to the Mandai Crematorium & Columbarium and into Service Hall 2. As we went up the escalator, my Uncle commented (my sis told me that) that it's as if we are using the staircase to heaven, like the ones in Tom & Jerry.

The room have really high ceiling, wooden floor and walls. Rows and rows of seats and some mics. We sang 3 songs with two guitarists and then more words from the vicar and a translator which is redundant. (The vicar spoke in english). I had goosebumps. Then, each of us supposed to place a white chrysanthemum on the body. I was so close to my Uncle and he looks like a wax man to me.

Then we went to the Viewing Hall 2. Then, someone farted. My bro and I was looking at each other and giggled silently. I really want to burst out laughing but I can't. It wasn't the right time and containing the laughter inside of me is a really painful experience. I bear with it all the way and started laughing in one of the cubicle in the toilet. Damn. I hate that feeling. I share it with my sis but she said she didn't hear anything but my Uncle did. What an ironic chinese new year.

My father dropped me off at the Jurong Regional Library and I borrowed some books by Sir Conan Doyle (it was recommend by Christopher Francis Boone written by Mark Haddon) and some UFOs books.

Back to work, a new malay girl came two days ago to substitute Rosalind while she was in Thailand enjoying. So many people asked me that. "Where's your friend?", "Why you didn't go?" The Docker's one was really funny yesterday. Started to talk with the malay girl. I forgot her name. I think is Fadiah. Anyway, she and her friend are both funny.

So much for today. Bye.

More food, hongbaos and words today. Due to stupidity, I missed Survivor (Cooks Island) and it took me a couple of weeks to know why. Anyway, I caught it on Youtube. The finale plus the reunion. Damn nice and I was right that Yul wins. They were really good with words and it made the whole thing more interesting. Fiji Island is not bad too.

Work starts tomorrow. Back to face the idiots again. By the way, the Epic movie is really boring.

I'm the first one to wake up this morning.

Then, we went to the temple to pray. Then, to my Aunt's house to eat shark fin! I ate a lot of junk food. Lots of people there which means lots of hong bao. Then, we went to my next Aunt's house. More and more hong bao coming my way. Watched a really funny tv programme on TVBS which teaches four letter greeting words and sarcastic words to use during pig year. So so funny. My cousin wanted to give me the GP essays but they are books. (Shu) Which also means to lose. (using direct translation) Anyway, I didn't really care so I took it from her.

When I read the first essay, I realised that life is going to be hell with GP around. I then read the second essay. I found that one rather easy. My point is that, if I read more, I would be more aware of current affairs which will benefit me.

Then, everyone came my house and it was so crowded. My cousins played with my drumsticks and we chatted. Youngsters world. Then, a stupid incident happened which had nothing to do with me. I just dislike my Aunt's son's girlfriend. A person with really really low AQ. She doesn't know how to react to situations, though my cousin didn't mean it at all.

Then went to another Aunt's house. Eat again. Kept eating and eating. Then, I watched a really nice chinese movie on tv. The happiest thing is that I got a really really big hong bao. I mean the amount is huge, at least to me. Quite happy today.

Tomorrow still need to "bai nian"! Dammit. So tired. Going back to work on 20th Feb.

Guess what, Serene gave me a hongbao. Ros and I were suppose to say a four letter word ( A good one though) to wish her. Whatever like "Nian Nian You Yu"... Too bad. My chinese is poor. Can't think of something that is very chim.

Then, I rushed home to eat steamboat. It's been a while since I last ate my meal with my family. Like for 47 days... Wow!

I managed to stay up late for the countdown. Dammit la, kept playing the same old chinese songs. I heard a hundred times while working. Now, it just gets on my nerves whenever I hear them. I can sing all of them liao... Speaking of work, I'd served one idiotic customer today. Anyway, whenever we met some idiotic customers, we don't talk bad in front of them. We curse them behind their backs. Muhahaha. Sounds really evil but I don't give a damn. I don't know how the others manage to stay on for so long... I'm leaving the place really really soon. For those looking for a job, please never be a promoter.

Reason number one, it's a low pay job. Number two, you stand all day long and have to do dozens of cartons of stocks especially when CNY is approaching. Number three, you had to bear with all their fussy requests and some don't even say thank you and just give you a sulky black face. Next, You have cuts, blue blacks almost everywhere when handling the cartons.Adding on, you have to think until your head burst, trying to stuff hundred of boxes of socks or whatever shit into the cupboard and storeroom which always seems to be insufficient. Worse of all, you have to tag the briefs and socks, arrange the mess made by idiots, beware of Xiao Tian Tian or her descendants and serve the customer all at the same time. Sometimes, there wasn't time to even go to the washroom to pee. Walao. I can write out a book on all the stuff sia. The only thing that made me stay is the friends I'd made. If not, I will leave immediately.

I want to do a lot of things!

To be continued...

My results sucks to the core. I'm not satisfied initially. 14 points in top ten made me lose all hope. It must be higher 14 points. Geez. Whatever. There's nothing to be happy about. I didn't cry because I don't feel like crying. It's just average.

The first person I ask is Ms Shamsiah. She said it's worth a shot to go JJC. Then, to be sure, I ask Mr Ooi. He said JJC is in the middle range and it's worth a shot. Then, Mrs Sunil came and I apologised to her. She's disappointed. (Where's my distinction?) Then, Ms Vani. Again. Damn... I felt like letting lots of people down especially myself. My advice to all the people who haven't take their 'O" levels is not to panic at all or something bad will happen. Keep your head cool at all times. Ms Vani said it's worth a shot to go junior college too. I asked Mr Tan too. He said that I scored fairly well for Chemistry and it's worth a shot. Afterwards, I asked Mrs Sunil about the General paper. It's about current affairs and personal thoughts. She said it's all up to me but I can sense that it's JC. I felt rather happy that no verbal skills is required and so I made my mind to go JJC. The problem is that i did not go for 3 months course.

I spoke to Lao Gao at harmonica room. I ended up in a dilemma because of it. I was hesitant about entering junior college. OMG.

I like the car Ling Sing was driving except that it's a little squeezy. Then, I had ice kachang at a shop. I was blessed by Ah Po when Yeong Sheng said something lame and Ah Buck and I kana. Hmm... that's about it. I had a dilemma again about attending the O school or Contempo Music school which both commence in March. Dang.

What's done cannot be undone. I'm just numb right now. Can't believe that few hours back, my heart was pounding like mad. Four of my Aunts, one of my cousin and my tuition teacher called. Everyone was like saying " You did well" but I know it's just a lie. They don't mean it but who cares. Refer to the bold words above again. I thought that HuiHui is so formidable with 6As but I just watched the news... People got 10 A1s. Total freaks! Must be some geniuses from other planets.

P.S: To all people who felt that they didn't do well, accept the fact and live on.

I realise that eveyone on earth is so busy with their own life and what's said will not really matter.

Worst day of my life. I can't believe that sensitivity level is so low. I don't know if it's deliberate or never meant or what so ever, I just couldn't trust it anymore. It's all phoney perhaps it's just wanna make use of me. I can forgive but never forget.

Never mind that. Today, the stocks came really late and Matthew told me to throw everything undone into the storeroom. I didn't even have the time to do that. I did OT with the rest and it was challenging. 7 cartons of shit in it. The cartons are huge, approximately 60X70X55 cm. There's about 50 to 80 smaller boxes in it. Busy packing the stuff... I really envy that guy called Alex. He's like so free going around while I was busy tagging stuff at my full speed. Of course, I didn't finish and I throw 1 and a 1/3 carton in the storeroom and the other 1 and 2/3 carton outside. It's bound to be a busy day tomorrow but I won't be going back but to the school instead so that doesn't really matter to me.

What's memorable tonight is that one of the colleagues of mine left the workplace for some unknown reasons. I bought something for her. Didn't really quite figure out what she'll like so I bought her a tiny tortise. Work life will be quite different without her and some other staff which are leaving too but it doesn't matter as it is not up to me to make them stay or go. Things just happen and I'm not Doraemon. I like it when people helped me. Like that guy which i don't know helped me. Then, Alex. Then another colleague.

The interesting bit of my life is that eveyone went crazy today. 4 companies from YGM, Vizon, Redina and I don't know the last one, all sent stocks down. The result? Totally chaotic. If I were to count the stocks, I think it will add up to a thousand. When the announcement was made and the lights went off, everyone went like "Quick!!! GOGOGO!!" We just dumped eveything at the counter and I pushed the trolley back but it was locked. It doesn't really matter because I don't give a damn too. I left it outside the room. It was so funny when people get really panicky and I was watching them.

I passed the blue bag to another colleague and she asked me why there isn't one for her too. I know that it was meant to be a joke but I was too tired to laugh. I just went in with the lift with Ros and met Fiona. I walked home alone. It was rather peaceful. I like being alone. It just sometimes freaks me out because I'm scared. I saw black shadows flying past so often but I just tell myself that there's something wrong with my eye. It's a fact so that sort of calms me down whenever I see black shadows.

I hate being touched in the trains even if it's a slight brush with my bag or my hand because I just hate that. I don't like being too near to strangers and they had to be at least a foot away from me if I sense their presence. If I'm doing some other things like reading a book, it will be a different story because I'm not aware of that. I wonder if there's anything wrong with me because I don't think that people feel the same way I did.

I came up with a plan for tomorrow's activity.

First. To the library.
Second. To school.
Third. To harmonica.

Actually, I didn't like the idea at all. I hope that it will just be like PSLE. Like 4 years ago. I gotta watch Survivor tomorrow. The remaining three are Ossy, Yul and Becky. I hope Yul wins because he's an Asian. His name is Yul which is half of my name. It is nonsensical but I don't care. Tomorrow's 'O's result shall change my life forever. I hope that it's a good change though.

Tata to SF. Good luck.

Just now I went to LP Zone and Baleno to buy clothes for CNY. Got promotion so it's like quite cheap. For the first time, I bought ladies clothing. Hmmm... my mum will be over the moon. Everytime I buy unisex clothes which is like tomboyish, my mum will give me the black face although she will say anything la. Hehe. I don't know why but seeing her getting so pissed off makes me happy. SADDIST! UNFILIAL! I'm just kidding. Anyway, the clothes I bought is not girlish but more stylish I guess. So yup, that's about it.

Oh ya, I must stay really calm these few days if not blood vessels will burst. 'O' levels really pressurise me a lot. Anyway, come what may.

Bye.
Tomorrow got work. Sian. I mean YAY!

Hey people! The entry on the ARF event was rather brief so I decided to blog more on it as it was a memorable event, on the 29th Jan 2007.




The outside. It all started when a reckless driver went on top the roof and never came down.


It wrotes: ADMITS ONE (Complimentary)


This is the Hard Rock Cafe chop which everyone gets at the entrance. On my skin! Looks like a char siew bao to me. Hmmm...


This is Mr. James Brown's costume framed up. Initiallly, my sis and I was sitting so near to it so I decided to take a shot of it.


The light bulbs in the toilet. LALA.


The dark cafe with really loud music.

I really love the The Cells' version of Zombie (by Cranberries) and Knocking on heaven's door (by Bob Dylan). Apart from the english songs, I didn't really understand what the hell they were singing. Some Laos songs I think... One of the guitarists was like strumming on the guitar too hard and the string snapped. Hehe. It took them some time to get back on stage while Vernon A and Justin Ang from Perfect Ten Fm was talking crap once again. Hehe.

Next up, Bamboo! I really love them. The lead singer got a great voice and is damn charming. It's great that he made eye contact with the crowd and the girls were like ARHHH!!!! Everyone go like "BAMBOO! BAMBOO! BAMBOO!" I was having quite a lot of fun then. I love the solos by all the members especially Vic. I love the song "English Man" because the people are like so high, singing "I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien. I'm an Englishman in New York! Wo-Oh!"

Some videos on Youtube...

CNY coming up so my working hours is extended! Shit la. Kept saying "Oh shit" so much recently. Today the customers are really nice. It's the usual stuff but I kept stocking the undergarments though it appears that no one is buying... I think it was kinda of spooky. I called Dockers to come over to see the T back pouch and then got funny story about people buying it to play basketball and ops. We all go like WAHAHAHA. Wa lao, the staff are all talking about a customer whom they called "Xiao Tian Tian". LOL. I really wanted to see that fucked up attitude woman without a taste of her secret weapon.

Why sthere's like o many people leaving before CNY...they said. Really friendly people and got their own style. I really learn hell lots of stuff. I will miss them all for sure.

Anyway, the ASEAN concert was cool and the atmosphere is really cool with really high people. I must say that the MTV Asia @ Atrium level 4 is like so damn cool.

I have a side that wants me to keep the secrets to myself but yet sometimes I really feel like opening up the closed door. It's rather lonely walking home alone. Time passes so quickly and it made me cherish the people around me more and more.